Driveing lessons

The people who read my blog probably know by now that my Newphew Noa, is in town for the holidays.
Hes going to be staying through till new years and is more than exstatic by the idea that his Aunt is dating The CO of the autobots. I thought the kid would be freaked honestly, but he seems fine with it and had to take photos and send back to all of his friends to prove it.
Now i like to call him Kid and Runt, but the fact is hes about 16 or so. Which means that he is in the process of learning how to drive. Now there is no way that I would ever let the kid loose in my brand new countour... so I get gas in my farm truck, which is mostly used once a month or so to go into town for the sam's run. Its big its old and a few more dents wont matter so I get it ready and plan on taking the kid out on a few of the back roads.
Im out there in the process of doing that when Orion Finds me.

"And what pray tell are you doing with that clunker?"

I pop out from under the hood, "This? Getting it ready for Noa, driving lessons."

"In THAT? "

"In this."

"That thing wont make it down the road."

I look at him and wonder whats on his mind.

"So what do you propose I do about it?"

"Why dont you take him in me?"

Okay i have to bit my lip to keep from laughing, and he notices it.

"WHAT?"

"Baby, your a standard!"

"So?"

"So He barely knows how to drive a automatic!"

"Well then Noa needs to learn how to drive a standard."

The kid comes around the corner at that moment, "Did one of you two say my name?"

"He did." I point

"Ummmm... why? You need something?"

"Not at all Noa," Orion Grins, "I was just wondering if youd rather have your driving lessons in her old truck or in me?"

The kids eyes get the size of saucers and he looks at me, "OH can I? Please!!!!!!!!?"

"but..."I know im fighting a looseing battle here but I keep trying.
Ofcourse Orion has to take the kid's side and now I have both of them going at me.
I have to roll my eyes at him but i finally let Them talk me into it.

The Kid practically cheers and runs off to go get his walet and permit, while I Wipe my hands off on a rag and go back to talking to Orion.

"You SURE your not gonna regret this?"

He laughs, "The kid only comes once a year Rose, we may as well make it special for him."

"We taking him to the party?"

"OF course, him and every one else. We have a whole herd of snow birds here."

I grin over that one, "No really? Its got to snow here eventually."

"I am starting to wonder, Then again Thats Kentucky for you."

I laugh again and the kid comes back around the corner with a huge grin plastered on his face.

TWO HOURS LATER:

"no Noa, thats the clutch!! NO THATS THE GAS!!"

I wince as i hear the gears grinding and i KNOW that poor orion is going to be VERY sore tomorrow.

"Sorry!" Noa says.

"Okay ONE more time, SLOWLY!!!"

The gears Grind again and i feel like wonking my head on the dash board.

"I'm Sorry Optimus,"The kid tells us. "Really!"

"no yer fine honestly, just keep trying."

Another Hour later:

We finally make it home and Noa has had the time of his life but as predicted Orion is VERY sore.

"Thank you so much I had a blast!"

"Well your welcome Noa, We'll go again tomorrow if you like."

"I WOULD!! I gotta go call the guys!!"

The guys being his pack back home, every five minuts he's calling themand telling them about whats going on here. Like I said before, he was a lil excited when he found out I was telling the truth about my BF.

The kid vanishes into the house and He manages to maintain until the door shuts behind him.
The second the kid is gone he lets it out.

"I think i need to go see Ratchet," He manages.

"C'mon, " I giggle, " I warned you didnt i?"

Five more minutes later hes up on the racks in truck mode and Ratchet is about to have a fit.

"WHAT happened?" The CMO demands, "Ive never, in all the years of working on yu and all the others, seen a transmission in THIS bad of a shape. What DID YOU DO?"

"Ahhh..." Orion is to embarassed to get anything out so I just grin at the Doc.

"Driving lessons," I tell him.

This earns me a dirty look as he goes back to work, and I have to grin more because we promised to do it again tomorrow.

Heven help us.

Still I have to admit having the kid around is helping a lot, I havent exactly been in the mood to have christmas, depsite what I said at my last post and how hard I have been trying. I dunno if its because of me, what has happened or maybe its my family. I still dont have any real answers.
but Noa, has a kids innocence still, and looks at the holiday the way we all used to at some point in our lives. Hes getting me there.

Any how, I will see every one at the party take care until then.

Rose.

Comming around again...

Well Thanksgiving was strangely peaceful for once in my life.
None of the realatives made any cracks about any of my guests, no one got offended and there were no fights. There were a lot of odd visitors though.
Being from a milatary family my dad knows lots of people, and some of them were in town. Mr. Wistler stopped by and Gave dad the typical thanks giving greatings. Later my best friend michell showed up with her new BF Bruce in tow. Not to get smart but there is a man that could give Orion and Anakin brooding lessons.
Lots of others that i could spend all day going into details about it but i wont.
Whats going on now is that we are getting ready for Chistmas, i still cannot believe how fast this year has gone by.
How many changes there have been and what we all have gained and lost.
In the back ground i have some Chirstmas music playing, "Now thats Chrsitmas" the song thats going at the moment is "So this is Christmas"

"So this is christmas, and what have we done. Another year over, a new one begun."

For some reason that pretty much sums how i feel about everything. So many things have come and gone. If any one had told me last year that life woudl change this much in the short period of 365 days, i would have laughed my ass off. IF any one had told me that in the period of those days I would get my hearts greatest wish, I would find out that the person i have loved for most of my life loved me back, i would have slapped them and called them a liar.

I look a lot different than i did a year ago, a good 45 lbs lighter. Wieght that i lost durring the summer when I was hurt, and that i will probably never gain back. Then theres that that white streak too, yet another reminder of what happened and how much we all changed.

later to night me and mom will wrestle the "Tree" down out of the grage atic and put it together. I may even put my small one together up here.
I know this is repeating what has already been said, but I really thought that i would not have the spirt to do this. That when the time came i was not going to enjoy or get involed in any of this. I honestly beleived that it would just be too sad, that it would be inappropireate or dishonnering those who were gone to do it. Celebrating just felt WRONG.

And then i had a chance to think, to really sit down and sort out my thoughts.

My dearest grandma Mavis had always loved this time of year with all ofher heart and soul. But more often than not she never got a chance to enjoy it because for one reason or another some one showed thier rump, usually my grandpa. but no matter what happened to her she always made an attempt to make it happy for her children and grand kids. She loved life and lived it to the fullest every chance she had. She would want all of us that were here to go on and enjoy it. To not waste it crying and ruin the only chance at happiness we might have. She would be down right pissed off if i didnt do what she loved, and keep her traditons alive for the next generation.

Then there are all of those that we lost in the battles, all of those who willingly went to die so that we could live on. IF we stop living and mourn for them, then the sacrifice that they made for us was in vain. We have to go on.

There is still a big part of me that wants to be apathetic to the whole thing, that wishes that i had at least another month to get into the whole mode. that deep down maybe even wishes that it hadnt come at all this year. A part of me where the scars of life are still fresh.

BUT, the whole point of the season is that of second chances. Christ was born to give all humanity a second chance right? Born to save us from all the evils and scars that our hearts have to bear as we make our way through this and all the miriad of other worlds out there. And weather you believe in God, or follow the teachings of the Force, or are a Child of Primus, or follow any other of the millions of wonderous Faiths out there, you cant miss the message of this time of year.

So I have decided to keep going and follow my heart and my feelings. Despite the pain i still feel from everything ive seen and lived through this year, they are telling me to keep going and not loose the meaning of this time of year.
So that's what im going to do, get my skid plate out of the its funk if i have to drag it and find my seasonal sprit some how

Every one else out there who went through the flames right along side of me and mine I hope you can all do the same. that you can find your sprit of Christmas and enjoy the season of fresh starts and new beingins.

"So this is Christmas, and what have we done?"

What we had to my friend, and i wouldnt chance one thing.


Happy holidays to every one, no matter what relgion you are. Thank you For everything.


Rose and Co.

Deviled Eggs....

As I'm sure you all know, The american Holiday ThanksGiving is less than 48 hours away. And Rose, despite her repeated claims that she does not enjoy her status as such is very much a southern girl. And for human femmes of that dispostion it is born and bred into them to , when this particular holiday hits, to enjoy two things. Family and food.
So she is currently in the kitchen, working on a large batch of the aforementioned appatizers. I also discovered something else about the nature of southern females when the holidays roll around. The kitchen is THIER domain, and if you are of the male pursuasion youd better stay out of thier way or be prepared to follow orders.
So basically what I am doing at this point is standing here holding the cake decorateing bag while Rose scoops what i think is left of the egg yolks into it.

"And the point to this is?"

"So we can put it back into the whites." She tells me pointing to the neat rowes of boiled eggs.

In the living room several people are watching the TV, its kind of a tradition in Rose's family to watch the Starwars movies on Thanks giveing. So several are there going through her extras disk on Episode one.
Roddy makes some crack about how many extras can they possibly have on this thing while Misty mans the remote.

I hand the finaly filled bag to rose and spend and few moments watching the group in the other room. I have to admit im glad that they seem to be happy after all that had happened i was thinking for a while that Rose wouldnt be celebrateing any of the holidays.

I turn back around and find Rose stareing out of the window paused in mid squeese.

I dont have to ask I know what she's looking out, the faint glow comming from that part of the woods.

"What's on your mind?"

"Hmmm," She looks up at me, "Oh i was just thinking, about how close i came to not doing any of this. The party the celebration, any of it. I didn't think it was appropriate. Because of my Grandma, and Vector."

"So what made you change your mind?" I ask.

"Because, it would in appropriate to not do it. This is what my Gran' lived for and what Vector Died for. The right to just live and enjoy life. If we didnt have a party, if we didnt take the time to live the life they loved, wed be dishonnoring them both."

"I'm glad you understand that, because your completely right."

I walk over and she sets down her work and puts her arms around me.
Right then Rose's nephew, thats staying here till new years, chooses that moment to come in the back door and mock glare at us as his arms are full of the stuff she sent him out to get.

"Oh would you two STOP!! NO MAKEING OUT IN THE KITCHEN! We have to eat this stuff ya know?" He teases.

"Push off runt!" Rose shoots back. "Or i'll make you lug in more stuff."

He makes a face at her and sets the bags down heading in to the living room.

Its good to see that life goes on. Those who are gone are still with us in our hearts as long as we dont forget them. Those who are still here carry on stronger for what they have learned.
I think Rose maybe feared that this holiday season would be ruined, im glad that she was wrong.

Prime.

"When I am Needed..."

The last few note that are sung by Kenya float up amoung the trees as we all we all stand near the memorial and she finishes her haunting version of "may it be" for the ceremony. She steps away from the head of the group of those here to pay thier respects and every one turns to face me.
All of them are expecting me to be the one to say something, I make no move and continue to hold Rose's free hand as i turn to Rodimus. I had planned on it but he choose to instead, considering that it was his life Vector saved I allowed him his wish.
He steps to the head of the crowd and all of those here pay him thier full attention.

"We are here to day to honnor a great person who had fallen in his life's quest. I could go into a great deal of platitudes about who he was and what he was about, That However is trite and he deserves more than trite."

He paused for a moment and looked greatly sad, then continued.

"He gave his life in war, a war not just for freedom or for glory but rather for the very right to exist. To live free and safe from the fear of anialation. An example to all of us and one of the few who truly lived up to the title of Prime. A greatness of spark that I can only hope to live up to someday. He understood what it means to love all life and that some times in order to protect that life, to live up to what honnor demands means sacrificeing what is most dear to our selves and our loved ones. To do any thing less would be to spit in the eyes of our proud history not just as Autobots or Decepticons, but as Cybertronians.
We will never forget the sacrifice that both he and those who lost thier lives on Velocetron, Lest we ever forget and fall pray to the same evil that consumed those who fell to Unicrons thrall.
We will honnor Vector and The others for thier sacrifice until that day, Until all are one."
He turned and faced Rose and stepped out of the way motioning for her to come forward. She stepped up with the candle she was holding in her hand and touched it to the place on the memorial where a flame would always burn. As it came to life, it displayed what was written there.
Rose had commented to me at one point that Vector Prime Reminded her of King Aurthor.
So appropriately enough we chose we chose quote from the tale about that great earth leader.

"WHEN I AM NEEDED, I WILL RETURN."


It fits.


Thank all of you again, for everything.

Prime.

Memorial

To all of those who helped us in battle as well as all of those who were his friends in life.
Vector Prime's memorialas well as one for those one the world of Velocetron will be held on Rose's property tomororow night.
All of those wish to attend are welcome.
Again all of those who hepled us in our battles, thank you for everything.

Prime.

Unicron...

It begins with a rumbling so deep that its nearly sub-sonic. Something that you feel, in your bones more than you could ever possibly hear.
Its then that all of us here know that the time has come, HE is here.

We all step out into the night and then we see it, an infinately black blot against the beauty of the stars.
All those in the ships over head, the asguard, the squadrons, and all of them take up postion making it known to our foe that he was not getting close to this world with out a fight.

As the fleet deploys we see them, hundreds, millions of them. Transformers and others creatuers that have either been claimed or given thier lives to this monster for some reason, all of them heading toward our forces that were standing in thier way.

At the head of the band of dark warriors Nemesis and another of Unicron's minions Galvetron. They and all of the others decend to cyberton and all of us prepare for the worst.
Orion and Roddy stand at the head of the group as the monsters land and proceed quite litterally crash into out group. I do what i can, trying my hardest to give cover to those that are fighting and trying to stay as close to orion as i can.

I look around and see that every where , someone has thier hands full with these things.

Megatron lays down a full on blast on Glavetron only to have the superpowerd mainiac spring back and send him flying.
"You cannot win agianst MY superior design!"
"I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED BY A MEAR COPY!!!" Megatron littereally roars in comparison. As his is joinged by the cry of dragon form Meleficent as she Kyxiel and a heard of heartless sweep down on the clone of Megatron unicron created in his first gambit all those years ago.

Another place Anakin and Kenya are in the process of plowing the road as they sweep in on Crook and delta. things , scatter before them as others fire back in and attempt to bring them down.
Over head the asguard, resistance fleets as well as both the nemesis and the ark do thier level best to pelt the monster and slow it down at least some.

I catch a glimps Of yoda and his group, Quigon, Vector, and Alpha, tearing through things that look like they fell out of doom, in order to get to where Xam and Sentinel are backed up against a wall. I make the mistake of getting distracted for a moment by this only to have Darkness yank me out of the way of a stray shot. I land flat on my face but before i can say thank you We have to get up and move again, getting seperated in the process.

Every where someone is fighting something, but for the moment we seem to have the upper hand against them. Holding out own and inddeed driving them back for all its wroth. I manage to skid around a corner making it back to where Nemesis and Orion are trying to tear each other appart.
"Do you honestly think you can win? Light cannot exist with out the dark, YOu kill me, you might as well be killing your self.' Nemesis growed as the two of them grappled.
"Do you honestly think im going to let your mind games effect me? I'm going to end the threat that you and your master pose to the universe or im going to die trying."
"So be it. Your power cannot defeat my master unless you can get to him, I shall make sure that does not happen."
HE narrowed his blackeyes and focused over Orions shoulder to wwhere crook and anakin are and dilberately shoots out the wings, not sending them into a crash, but making sure they have to land.

"And now Prime, Witness my master in all of his glory!!"

That was when all hell breaks loose, Unicron Transformed.

IN a sould shattering voice that probably crawled up out of the depths of darkness the monster assumes his real form and annouces his intentions.

"I AM UNICRON, CHILDREN OF MY BROTHER AND THOSE WHO WOULD AID THEM IN THIER STAND AGAISNT ME. KNOW THIS, NOW IS THE TIME OF HIS DESTRUCTION, ONLY ONE OF US WILL REMAIN AFTER THIS DAY AND THOSE WHO CHOOSE HIS SIDE WILL PERISH WITH HIM!!!"

"NO!!" I could hear orion cry over the din as Nemesis litterally draged him to the ground and made sure there was no way he was going to get where he needed to be.

All around us, I then see that his minions have gained powerd from him while we are all starting to wear down. I see that he and his will win unless I do what I have been given leave to do.

"RODDY!!" I scream as i dash to where he has his own hands full.
"Rose?!"
"I NEED you to get me to the sky dome," I beg him, "Please."

"Say what?" He fires off two more shots and ducks back "WHY! that place is just and old relic"
"No its not, LISTEN To me. I have what we need, i have something that can beat unicron but i have to get there and i cant make it on my own!!!"
" You do realize that when dad finds out i drove you through that guantlet hes gonna kill me."
"I dont care!! Roddy this is out LAST chance. Please!!"
He looks at me and transformes i dont waste time as i get in and the two of us take off.
Its not that easy as Nemesis sees us and knows what im going to do.
"SCOURGE STOP HER!!"

I look up out of the widnows in time to see the hover craft bearing down on us.
however, as we dart between two combatants someone has other ideas. A gout of acid yellow flames ingulfs the tracker a moment before a huge black maw snaps shut on him.
Oout of the smoke Vector appears in his alt mode and proceedes to cover us all the way to our destination.
I jump out as we get there and head into a door that for some reason is human sized.
And there it is, our last restort. I dump my back pack on the ground and fish out the box that Vector gave me. Inside are just what i expected. keys, the means to do what hasnt been done in the history of this world. The means to wake up Primus.

It dosent take me long to match the right ones with the right slots, getting them to stay put now thats the hard part. This device has NEVER been used, but was put here in case it ever needed to be. In the words of Eclesiasties, to everything there is a season. Now is the right time for this, i know in my heart and soul.
I finish the last one and grab hold of the locking lever, the thing that will send the signales from the keys to where they need to go. The only problem goes back to that whole thing with it never haveing been used. So the lever that sould move smoothly and be made with out any problems, is full of sharp edges and refuses to budge. This is my last chance how ever, and I will not give up. I can feel the thing cutting past the fabiric of my gloves and into my hands but I get it to move. Then with a jolt that rocks the whole world, it falls into place.
Everything around me starts to give off a blue glow, i tear of of the place and head back to roddy.
"What did you DO?"
"What i had to, C'mon lets get back and help you father."

I get into his alt mode and thats when i noticed something else, every one or everything that had comiited its self to Unicron has suddenly stoped fighting and began wailing in complete anguish. As the blue light spreads out from the sky dome and the world begins to take on its true form, ever one of Unicrons minions flees in terror.
Roddy and i stare in shock at this unexpected event. And agian i get careless. Before they are completely driven back, one of them takes aim and lets loose a shot aimed at Roddys heart. I scream as i see it comming and then scream louder as a gold and white blurr dives between Roddy and the shot. Vector.
The thign laughs as it flies off and we gape in horror.
"NO!!' I Dont want to accept what i know will happen.
Roddy is at a loss for words and Vector has one final message for him.
"Get to Optimus" Is all he managed before the light goes out of his eyes for good.

I stand there frozen in place as Roddy Grabs me and transformes taking back off to where we left his father.

Nemesis is the only one of unicrons servents that has some how managed to remain deaspite what its going on around him.
"NO! HOW!?"

And moments later the process is complete The transformer creator , the very first of his kind, the original transformer, Comes into being and looks at his twin with a gaze of infinate sadness. Un like the other, he offers not posturing or declerations of his intentions he simply stops the other's rampage and tells him his intentions.

"NO MORE DEATH BROTHER, YOU MUST BE STOPPED."

And then Nemesis has to flee, returning to the thing that changed him from a compassionate Prime to the thing ihe is now.

"Very well then! If that is how you want it Optimus! Lets see which is stronger, the light or the dark!!
He has only moments to prepare before the energy of the Dark Matrix nemesis carries is unleashed. Moments to summon up his own and let the power he controls free.
Its not enough, as strong as Orion is its not enough. They are evenly matched, and There's nothing either one can do alone.
He is how ever not alone, Rody and i Managed to make it there as i jump out and the kid goes to help his father, adding his own power to what is already there. I do the best i can to get to them and try to get up to help orion only to loose my grip and fall. I shut my eyes and wait to hit when someone catches me.
Megatron and Meleficnet are there looking much the worse for wear but ready to stop them. Behind them i see all of the others, Anakin, Kenya, Kyxiel, Darkness, and countless others. every one who came to help us all of them adding thier own faith and power to what is already there.

"NO!!!" Unicron screams, "Im possible!!"

"You may be stronger than any of us," I shout , "But your not stronger than ALL OF US!! GO BACK TO HELL!!"

The screams of all the darkness that had come merge into one cachophany and the gate that had let them out opens again.

"YOU WILL NOT BE RID OF ME!!" The monster cries out before he and his are pulled through.

"NO," Primus answers, "BUT WE WILL BE SAFE FROM YOU. GOODBYE MY BROTHER, IT DID NOT HAVE TO BE THIS WAY AGAIN, PERHAPS SOMEDAY YOU WILL CHANGE."

Arrival...

I step out on to the planet as the door hisses open and take a long look around. I feel a lil wierd in the outfit i have on but Orion and Roddy stipulated, No armor, no go to planet.
It looks like a BMX out fit but is a lot lighter and stronger i dunno where they got it but im acutally great ful.
Someone else isnt though and Meleficent is over by the con shuttle threatening to sell megs on Ebay when they get home for getting her into the thing. Shape shifting socrceress she may be, but shes still organic and the guy has a point.
She's less than thriled but has it on and i suppse thats progress.
I sit my duffle down and again take stock of the world im on. Its facinatinig to say the least, considering yer on a a world where everything is buld to the scale of full sized tf's. Now I know how ants feel.

I walk over to where Orion and several others are discussing how this could have happened, who set this this thing loose.
I have to wonder was this Palps legacy? If he knew he could not have it, the universe, did he really intend for not one else to either?
This is one way to do that. Still I hope it wasnt that, NO ONE not even him can be that monsterous.

Kyx appears and Makes a few comments to Mel and megs, Somehow I wonder if there somethign that she knows?
I doubt it. Shes just caught up in this mess like the rest of us.

Then i have to wonder about what i have been given, Why me? Cus Im Orion's girl? or cus i know how to use them when the time, IF the time comes.

I see others around, people talking to a few of Megs contacts about getting copies like theone i left on earth of me. Poor things haveing truck day if i guess right.

When this is all over im not ever going to complain about normal life again. I just want to go home and be safe.
Still allw e can do now is wait and see what happens. They know we are here and the respones will come soon. I just hope we are ready


Rose

Cybertron...

We have arrived...
Honestly i dont really know what to say, or what to do for that matter. Though we have been informed by a lot of people that there is no way were going down with out back up. So for the moment im just watching it out side of my window.

Its a pretty planet, but there is something unnerveing about looking a the planet and knowing its ALIVE...
And no i dont mean that in the traditonal terms.. I mean it litterally.
Cybertron is much like the thing were all out to fight, a planet sized TF. Im not going to get into all of the various theories and speculation about what role this plays for the guys. I'll leave that to the experts.
Still sometimes i have to wonder if the thing im stareing out my windows at, had a whole lot more to do with the universe than some of us had been told. Granted i still have and maitain my faith, but maybe thats just how it got done on the human world. Our lil rock is by no means the begin all end all of the universe, though sometimes i think the thing is sitting on a whole mess of cosmic leylines.

But i could spectulate about it until I was blue in the face, and still not get any where, right now i need to pack and get ready to head down there.
I think there are certain people that would be happier if id keep my rear end on the ark and not get involved. I think most of the other girls on this and every other ship fall into those catergories, keep dreaming boys.

i take another look out of the window and notice something, something that should be there but isnt. The two moons have over time been rebuilt, so they float there sereanly while something else is missing. Unicron's head, its gone.

I know,what yer thinking, if were going to fight this guy why was his head in orbit around cyberton? Well the first time he got beat, thats where it ended up. The fact that it is gone now, that tells me that we are not mistaken, hes alive andd hes comming. Still i have to wonder, how the hell DID he get back into this universe?
What could have been so powerful, that it could have broken open the barriers to hell basically.
it had to be something powerful and dark, and willing to do anything.

IS there someone THAT STUPID out there? I wonder silently as i grab more gear and stuff it into my bag.
I jump three feet when i hear someone behind me and spring around into a defensive stance only to find Vector there.

"DONT DO THAT!!" i gasp.
"Forgive me," He replies, "But i think i may be able to answer your question."
I sigh, "How many times to i have to tell you telelpaths to get off my brain waves?"

That gets me a laugh only to have the aincent mech fall serious again.

" I do not know who it was but i know what it was," he tells me, "A storm."

"YOu wanna be a bit more specific."

"I cannot, that is all i know. A great dark storm ripped open the barriers and "
"out popped the big bad right?"

"Indeed"

"Fun," I shove another sweatshirt into my bag, "Well we are going to have to take drastic measuers then arent we?"
"Very much so, These are part of it." He sets a box on my bed and walks out
Dont you just love the mystery thing that the ones like him do? Im pretty sure i know whats in the box though, one look tells me that im right as i cram it into my back back.
I HOPE we dont have to use these, i hope we can defet him our selves. But now we have something that he dosent know about, a way to level the playing feild if worse comes to worse.
I just hope that it doesnt come to that.
Because if we wake him up to fight in order to regain the balance after its over, both of them might have to be destroyed.
Rose

IT take two

I made a point of apologizing to every one, checking on Roddy and spending some more time talking to Anakin before i headed up to check on Rose.
By now every one knows she suffers from Chronic insomnia when shes upset, and she's not much for sedation. Ratchet has the dents to prove it.
She's not been much for sleeping in the last few days since we were rescued. Tonight how ever, I caught her doing somethign that I was prying that i would never have to put up with again until we got back to earth.
HOW In the NAME of PRIMUS she got that dammed thing delivered to a ship going faster than the speed of light i will never know. Jetfire, if I find out you did it, your on KP For the rest of your natural LIFE.
:Jet' swallows::

Of course im talking about that damm movie.
The 20th anniversery edtion came out and she got her paws on one.

That was the LAST thing in space, on earth , or in the whole universe she needed after what happened.
She got it. So when i went to her room to check on her last night, I thought she was asleep. I was about to leave when I heard it. Muffed sounds of her crying. I heard it and I spotted that stupid dvd on her table. ::Glares and plans on spacing it::

I turned on the light and had her roll over to look up at me with Silver eyes blurred by tears.

I wanted to shout, "YOU DIDN'T" at the top of my vocals but i just couldnt bring my
self to do that to her. She just looked at me for a few seconds and then proceeded to fling her arms around me and bury her head in my shoulder.

"Im sorry Rose," I told her, "I should have stopped you."

"I can't go through it again," She sobed, "I cant loose you a second time."

"You wont."

She raised her head and looked up at me, "If you go ..."

"Forget that stupid bit of 80's animation trash please? I'm not gonna die."

"You dont know that." She insisted.

And then proceeded to bury her head in me and start again.

I hate that stupid movie, I really do.
It took a good hour or more to finally get her clamed down enough, and FINALLY it did take the intravention of Rat. Shes gonna be pissed over that when she wakes up but i think it was something that had to be done.

I didnt realize how scared she was, afraid that I'd wind up dead. That she'd be alone again.
I dont know if thats a posiblity or not, honstly.
I think that what its going to come down to is just how powerful Unicron has gotten and in the end i dont know what the real out come is going to be .
But I am worried about her now.
She seems doing some what better and at least is sleeping in to day. But shes's still who she is and when that gets out of her system. Were going to be right back where we were.
I had hoped that the monsters that hautned this universe would stop bothering us.
The sad trugh is, the only way we are going to get lasting peace is if we fight for it.
I just pray I am up to the challenge.

I do have one more thign to say, I know that those we fight out there are reading this, that you can somehow see what i have to say and you will use this against me.

Listen to me now. YOU will leave my friends alone, you will stop haunting the woman i love and you will go back to what ever hole you came out of.
Stay away from them, when the time comes to fight then We will, I will fight you.

Prime.

Not what I had in mind...

First off , i want to apologize for how fragmented this might seem. I'm still dealing.

I have, until just last night, always enjoyed halloween. Spending the playing with youngins, eating way too much sugar, and watching horror movies all night.
NO one EVER Told me that I would wind up living one this year.
I WILL NEVER be able to watch Resident evil again.
I could go into a lot of details about what happend but the sad truth is, i realy dont remember that much.
Its one big blurr right now, and im thinking I have PTSD. The shock is gonna set in eventually Primus/God help us when it does. I may start screaming and never stop.
The thing that does stick out in my mind the most is the point when we realized that we were going to have to fight back. As innocent as these poor people on this planet might have been.. now they were basically walking stiffs. And im sad to say it was us or them.
By the way, Head shots are really the only way to take out zombies.
I want to thank every one that pulled our fat out of the fire. I dont know what the heck we were thinking why we thought to do this on our own. The Velocetron were of cybertron decent. I guess they thought that they could handel it.

What im worried about most now is the mental conditon of every one.
I dont know whats going to happen with poor Roddy. Misty , Luke and Luna ahve basically camped out and are trying to get the piont across to him. Even after all of this time, after everything that has happpend, the poor kid still blames him self for what happened the day that his father died.

Orion was in the Process of "talking" to Anakin. A promise had been extracted that NONE OF US will take of again with out takeing back up.
I noticed that he was, roddy was sitting there stareing off in to space. Misty was trying to get his attention and all he managed to get out was somethign muttered about it being his fualt.

I would have expected a lot of things right then, but what i didnt expect was for Megs to pull loose from Mel' and storm over to the poor shocked kid, then proceed to clock him. Roddy for a second snapped out of his shock and i managed to catch what Megs said.

"Listen to me BOY, I AM Sick of your insistance on that. There was only ONE person repsonsible for what happend that day. And you are looking at him. NO more self blame boy, we need you COMPETENT for this."

Which pretty much left the whole med bay shocked and silent. Maybe it will help i dont know.

What i have to say about this whole mess is that it shows how far those out there are willing to go to get what they want. To put this whole universe under thier thrawl. To much shock and pain.
But then again ther are the things that prove that allof this is worth it.
Things like what i just saw as i sit here getting all of this out of my system.
Things like the wheel twins running through the place in thier Halloween costumes still. Two cute lil ghosts that have no clue about how vile the world can be, how evil beings out there are.
Two sweet innocents that give me and all of us enough hope to NOT start screaming and never stop.

Finally there is this, which has just happend as i write this. Right now, his firends are out of there and Orion has gone to talk to roddy. The two of them finally discussing what DID happen that day at Metropelx.
Someone finally telling the kid, the one person that matters most, telling the kid, that it was NOT his fualt.

In end i think this is going to back fire in Nemesis' face. If Orion can get Rod over that, over what he has felt for years. Then they will both be that much stronger. That much more able to defeat Unicron when he shows.

We have to head for cybertron now, that is where hes going to head. But if we can do it, with out doubts and fears from the past. We can send that SOB back to what ever pit he was rotting in before he got loose.
And this time, we'll make sure he cant get out.

Rose.