Comming around again...
Well Thanksgiving was strangely peaceful for once in my life.
None of the realatives made any cracks about any of my guests, no one got offended and there were no fights. There were a lot of odd visitors though.
Being from a milatary family my dad knows lots of people, and some of them were in town. Mr. Wistler stopped by and Gave dad the typical thanks giving greatings. Later my best friend michell showed up with her new BF Bruce in tow. Not to get smart but there is a man that could give Orion and Anakin brooding lessons.
Lots of others that i could spend all day going into details about it but i wont.
Whats going on now is that we are getting ready for Chistmas, i still cannot believe how fast this year has gone by.
How many changes there have been and what we all have gained and lost.
In the back ground i have some Chirstmas music playing, "Now thats Chrsitmas" the song thats going at the moment is "So this is Christmas"
"So this is christmas, and what have we done. Another year over, a new one begun."
For some reason that pretty much sums how i feel about everything. So many things have come and gone. If any one had told me last year that life woudl change this much in the short period of 365 days, i would have laughed my ass off. IF any one had told me that in the period of those days I would get my hearts greatest wish, I would find out that the person i have loved for most of my life loved me back, i would have slapped them and called them a liar.
I look a lot different than i did a year ago, a good 45 lbs lighter. Wieght that i lost durring the summer when I was hurt, and that i will probably never gain back. Then theres that that white streak too, yet another reminder of what happened and how much we all changed.
later to night me and mom will wrestle the "Tree" down out of the grage atic and put it together. I may even put my small one together up here.
I know this is repeating what has already been said, but I really thought that i would not have the spirt to do this. That when the time came i was not going to enjoy or get involed in any of this. I honestly beleived that it would just be too sad, that it would be inappropireate or dishonnering those who were gone to do it. Celebrating just felt WRONG.
And then i had a chance to think, to really sit down and sort out my thoughts.
My dearest grandma Mavis had always loved this time of year with all ofher heart and soul. But more often than not she never got a chance to enjoy it because for one reason or another some one showed thier rump, usually my grandpa. but no matter what happened to her she always made an attempt to make it happy for her children and grand kids. She loved life and lived it to the fullest every chance she had. She would want all of us that were here to go on and enjoy it. To not waste it crying and ruin the only chance at happiness we might have. She would be down right pissed off if i didnt do what she loved, and keep her traditons alive for the next generation.
Then there are all of those that we lost in the battles, all of those who willingly went to die so that we could live on. IF we stop living and mourn for them, then the sacrifice that they made for us was in vain. We have to go on.
There is still a big part of me that wants to be apathetic to the whole thing, that wishes that i had at least another month to get into the whole mode. that deep down maybe even wishes that it hadnt come at all this year. A part of me where the scars of life are still fresh.
BUT, the whole point of the season is that of second chances. Christ was born to give all humanity a second chance right? Born to save us from all the evils and scars that our hearts have to bear as we make our way through this and all the miriad of other worlds out there. And weather you believe in God, or follow the teachings of the Force, or are a Child of Primus, or follow any other of the millions of wonderous Faiths out there, you cant miss the message of this time of year.
So I have decided to keep going and follow my heart and my feelings. Despite the pain i still feel from everything ive seen and lived through this year, they are telling me to keep going and not loose the meaning of this time of year.
So that's what im going to do, get my skid plate out of the its funk if i have to drag it and find my seasonal sprit some how
Every one else out there who went through the flames right along side of me and mine I hope you can all do the same. that you can find your sprit of Christmas and enjoy the season of fresh starts and new beingins.
"So this is Christmas, and what have we done?"
What we had to my friend, and i wouldnt chance one thing.
Happy holidays to every one, no matter what relgion you are. Thank you For everything.
Rose and Co.
None of the realatives made any cracks about any of my guests, no one got offended and there were no fights. There were a lot of odd visitors though.
Being from a milatary family my dad knows lots of people, and some of them were in town. Mr. Wistler stopped by and Gave dad the typical thanks giving greatings. Later my best friend michell showed up with her new BF Bruce in tow. Not to get smart but there is a man that could give Orion and Anakin brooding lessons.
Lots of others that i could spend all day going into details about it but i wont.
Whats going on now is that we are getting ready for Chistmas, i still cannot believe how fast this year has gone by.
How many changes there have been and what we all have gained and lost.
In the back ground i have some Chirstmas music playing, "Now thats Chrsitmas" the song thats going at the moment is "So this is Christmas"
"So this is christmas, and what have we done. Another year over, a new one begun."
For some reason that pretty much sums how i feel about everything. So many things have come and gone. If any one had told me last year that life woudl change this much in the short period of 365 days, i would have laughed my ass off. IF any one had told me that in the period of those days I would get my hearts greatest wish, I would find out that the person i have loved for most of my life loved me back, i would have slapped them and called them a liar.
I look a lot different than i did a year ago, a good 45 lbs lighter. Wieght that i lost durring the summer when I was hurt, and that i will probably never gain back. Then theres that that white streak too, yet another reminder of what happened and how much we all changed.
later to night me and mom will wrestle the "Tree" down out of the grage atic and put it together. I may even put my small one together up here.
I know this is repeating what has already been said, but I really thought that i would not have the spirt to do this. That when the time came i was not going to enjoy or get involed in any of this. I honestly beleived that it would just be too sad, that it would be inappropireate or dishonnering those who were gone to do it. Celebrating just felt WRONG.
And then i had a chance to think, to really sit down and sort out my thoughts.
My dearest grandma Mavis had always loved this time of year with all ofher heart and soul. But more often than not she never got a chance to enjoy it because for one reason or another some one showed thier rump, usually my grandpa. but no matter what happened to her she always made an attempt to make it happy for her children and grand kids. She loved life and lived it to the fullest every chance she had. She would want all of us that were here to go on and enjoy it. To not waste it crying and ruin the only chance at happiness we might have. She would be down right pissed off if i didnt do what she loved, and keep her traditons alive for the next generation.
Then there are all of those that we lost in the battles, all of those who willingly went to die so that we could live on. IF we stop living and mourn for them, then the sacrifice that they made for us was in vain. We have to go on.
There is still a big part of me that wants to be apathetic to the whole thing, that wishes that i had at least another month to get into the whole mode. that deep down maybe even wishes that it hadnt come at all this year. A part of me where the scars of life are still fresh.
BUT, the whole point of the season is that of second chances. Christ was born to give all humanity a second chance right? Born to save us from all the evils and scars that our hearts have to bear as we make our way through this and all the miriad of other worlds out there. And weather you believe in God, or follow the teachings of the Force, or are a Child of Primus, or follow any other of the millions of wonderous Faiths out there, you cant miss the message of this time of year.
So I have decided to keep going and follow my heart and my feelings. Despite the pain i still feel from everything ive seen and lived through this year, they are telling me to keep going and not loose the meaning of this time of year.
So that's what im going to do, get my skid plate out of the its funk if i have to drag it and find my seasonal sprit some how
Every one else out there who went through the flames right along side of me and mine I hope you can all do the same. that you can find your sprit of Christmas and enjoy the season of fresh starts and new beingins.
"So this is Christmas, and what have we done?"
What we had to my friend, and i wouldnt chance one thing.
Happy holidays to every one, no matter what relgion you are. Thank you For everything.
Rose and Co.
posted by Roseprincess1 @ 9:42 AM
2 Comments:
At 12:10 PM,
Sith Snoopy said…
Happy Holidays, Sweetie. :)
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.
At 1:18 PM,
Kenya Starflight said…
Thanks for the kind words on my blog. And for the message here.
I think I'm slowly getting into the swing of things here. Listening to Christmas music helps. So did attending church this morning.
May you and yours have a wonderful holiday.
May the Force be with you.
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