Not what I had in mind...

First off , i want to apologize for how fragmented this might seem. I'm still dealing.

I have, until just last night, always enjoyed halloween. Spending the playing with youngins, eating way too much sugar, and watching horror movies all night.
NO one EVER Told me that I would wind up living one this year.
I WILL NEVER be able to watch Resident evil again.
I could go into a lot of details about what happend but the sad truth is, i realy dont remember that much.
Its one big blurr right now, and im thinking I have PTSD. The shock is gonna set in eventually Primus/God help us when it does. I may start screaming and never stop.
The thing that does stick out in my mind the most is the point when we realized that we were going to have to fight back. As innocent as these poor people on this planet might have been.. now they were basically walking stiffs. And im sad to say it was us or them.
By the way, Head shots are really the only way to take out zombies.
I want to thank every one that pulled our fat out of the fire. I dont know what the heck we were thinking why we thought to do this on our own. The Velocetron were of cybertron decent. I guess they thought that they could handel it.

What im worried about most now is the mental conditon of every one.
I dont know whats going to happen with poor Roddy. Misty , Luke and Luna ahve basically camped out and are trying to get the piont across to him. Even after all of this time, after everything that has happpend, the poor kid still blames him self for what happened the day that his father died.

Orion was in the Process of "talking" to Anakin. A promise had been extracted that NONE OF US will take of again with out takeing back up.
I noticed that he was, roddy was sitting there stareing off in to space. Misty was trying to get his attention and all he managed to get out was somethign muttered about it being his fualt.

I would have expected a lot of things right then, but what i didnt expect was for Megs to pull loose from Mel' and storm over to the poor shocked kid, then proceed to clock him. Roddy for a second snapped out of his shock and i managed to catch what Megs said.

"Listen to me BOY, I AM Sick of your insistance on that. There was only ONE person repsonsible for what happend that day. And you are looking at him. NO more self blame boy, we need you COMPETENT for this."

Which pretty much left the whole med bay shocked and silent. Maybe it will help i dont know.

What i have to say about this whole mess is that it shows how far those out there are willing to go to get what they want. To put this whole universe under thier thrawl. To much shock and pain.
But then again ther are the things that prove that allof this is worth it.
Things like what i just saw as i sit here getting all of this out of my system.
Things like the wheel twins running through the place in thier Halloween costumes still. Two cute lil ghosts that have no clue about how vile the world can be, how evil beings out there are.
Two sweet innocents that give me and all of us enough hope to NOT start screaming and never stop.

Finally there is this, which has just happend as i write this. Right now, his firends are out of there and Orion has gone to talk to roddy. The two of them finally discussing what DID happen that day at Metropelx.
Someone finally telling the kid, the one person that matters most, telling the kid, that it was NOT his fualt.

In end i think this is going to back fire in Nemesis' face. If Orion can get Rod over that, over what he has felt for years. Then they will both be that much stronger. That much more able to defeat Unicron when he shows.

We have to head for cybertron now, that is where hes going to head. But if we can do it, with out doubts and fears from the past. We can send that SOB back to what ever pit he was rotting in before he got loose.
And this time, we'll make sure he cant get out.

Rose.