No Fate, But what we make
A very wise person once told a woman he loved that there was no fate save what we choose for our selves. That our actions, and reactions are what make the world we live in the way it is. They are what determine, what the life we live now is and what the futuer will be.
So I have to admit, I hate the idea that fate is set. That the way things turn out are the only way that they could turn out. That destiny gives us no choice and that fate is predetermined. Unfortunatly, i have found out that as much as I would like it not to, some times the universe has plans and those of us who live in it have to follow those plans no matter how much they might hurt. I honestly believed that some of the actions I choose to take would keep a horror that had haunted me from comming to pass. I truly believed that if I showed Orion the movie chroincaling his death he would choose to do something else. watch out for the gun, keep roddy on the other side of the city, let Superion stomp Megs flat. I thought that the knowlege I had was power and that I would never be forced to watch him leave this world and leave me behind.
i was a complete and utter fool.
The fact of the matter was, that no matter how much I wanted to save him, how deeply i wished that i wouldnt have to watch as he was torn open to keep his son from dying, that it was still going to happen. No strangely enough it didnt happen in 2005 , they got the date wrong there folks. It was much earlier than this, indeed it was almost at the time when the movie first premired. 1986. Where ever they acutally came to me from perhapes time works different there and it was already 2005, but in this world it was only 1986 and to me then they were still just my "Imaginary " friends. It still hurt though, loosing him hurt and knowing that he turned away from the knowlege to fulfill what he saw as his destiny proved how noble he really was. I think that was why I was so utterly shocked when he returned to me not to long ago. I thought he was dead and that he had abandoned me to my own fate. A life full of my insane human family, a life where he was nothing more than a dream and that I was once more completely alone.
Orion has sinced apologized for leaveing me that night in 1986. He swears that if it had truely been his choice he would have not left me. he would have stayed with me forever and he came back and brought every one else to me as soon as he could. It hurt knowing that i lost him for years on end. That I really was alone while he searched in the light beyond the other side for away back no matter how painful.
I am and always will be greatful and im sorry that i couldnt change it. But I found out that i really wasnt alone, an that they will always be with me from now on. You cannot fight against fate no matter how you try, but somtimes accepting it and follwing the path that is set is the only and best thing you can do.
There may be no fate but what we make, or there maybe a irrefuteable force of destiny, either way, I am glad they are home and i will do what ever i can to make sure that they stay here.
Forever
So I have to admit, I hate the idea that fate is set. That the way things turn out are the only way that they could turn out. That destiny gives us no choice and that fate is predetermined. Unfortunatly, i have found out that as much as I would like it not to, some times the universe has plans and those of us who live in it have to follow those plans no matter how much they might hurt. I honestly believed that some of the actions I choose to take would keep a horror that had haunted me from comming to pass. I truly believed that if I showed Orion the movie chroincaling his death he would choose to do something else. watch out for the gun, keep roddy on the other side of the city, let Superion stomp Megs flat. I thought that the knowlege I had was power and that I would never be forced to watch him leave this world and leave me behind.
i was a complete and utter fool.
The fact of the matter was, that no matter how much I wanted to save him, how deeply i wished that i wouldnt have to watch as he was torn open to keep his son from dying, that it was still going to happen. No strangely enough it didnt happen in 2005 , they got the date wrong there folks. It was much earlier than this, indeed it was almost at the time when the movie first premired. 1986. Where ever they acutally came to me from perhapes time works different there and it was already 2005, but in this world it was only 1986 and to me then they were still just my "Imaginary " friends. It still hurt though, loosing him hurt and knowing that he turned away from the knowlege to fulfill what he saw as his destiny proved how noble he really was. I think that was why I was so utterly shocked when he returned to me not to long ago. I thought he was dead and that he had abandoned me to my own fate. A life full of my insane human family, a life where he was nothing more than a dream and that I was once more completely alone.
Orion has sinced apologized for leaveing me that night in 1986. He swears that if it had truely been his choice he would have not left me. he would have stayed with me forever and he came back and brought every one else to me as soon as he could. It hurt knowing that i lost him for years on end. That I really was alone while he searched in the light beyond the other side for away back no matter how painful.
I am and always will be greatful and im sorry that i couldnt change it. But I found out that i really wasnt alone, an that they will always be with me from now on. You cannot fight against fate no matter how you try, but somtimes accepting it and follwing the path that is set is the only and best thing you can do.
There may be no fate but what we make, or there maybe a irrefuteable force of destiny, either way, I am glad they are home and i will do what ever i can to make sure that they stay here.
Forever
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